This is my 100'th post. I have written more than 100, but I deleted many old posts - but of the ones that I did save, this is my 100th. I just read Kodi's mom's absolutely lovely 200th post and feel enveloped in the warmth of her words. What started as just a passing thing in order to post comments on my niece's blog, slowly took shape into occasional posts from me and now an every day activity - blog time. Reading my favorite blogs and leaving comments. Lurking at other times. Writing every now and then. I would like to write more often but it is a lot of fun to read what other write and leave comments for them.
I think of how my blog time has become so much a part of my every day routine...I never quite thought I would make any friends in this blog world. I wrote my first post when KB was 10m old. Now my second child KG is 10m old! Hard to believe that the people I came to know in the blog world, I have known for quite a long time now. MM, Tharini, Rohini...people who have visited my site since then and who I have continued to read till date....
After being a part of this wonderful online shower where the back stage fun and email exchanges were enormous, you feel like you are actually back in college...those carefree days where banter, fun and frolic happened so easily without much context.
I have made a few really nice friends too in the process of blogging. It feels good in the midst of the isolation I often feel being a SAHM - which is a separate post in itself - one that I have composed in my mind many times but never could coherently put forth in writing.
When ever there is a celebration of some anniversary or birthday, one tends to quickly reminisce on the past years or some events leading up to that in a flash of few seconds. While I think of the two years (and only 100 posts I know!) I have been blogging, random posts come to mind. The fun post from Poppins mom on how she imagined each blogger to be like a certain actress, the post from madmomma which I think about often when I tell B that the day will come when I have to really let go of KB, not when he goes to preschool but much later, the spiritual parenting post from Tharini, the random comments and fun we had in the "our song" tag over at Kodi's, some hilarious posts from Terri's, like this one, which made me laugh loudly and feel so good for those few minutes, some posts like this one from Kiran which make me realize how I have grown so attached to the kids I read about, the joy I feel at their successes, posts like that which also make me feel inspired as a mother...the arguments that tend to happen over our view points which we are able to set aside and continue our friendly comments...I could go on and on since so many posts come to mind every now and then in different contexts....
The friendships I have formed with a few people in the blog world has been such a source of comfort - when I sit down at night after a long tiring day, to see a meaningful conversation as part of an email from a blogger friend, some phone conversations that I had with a few blogger friends where I could chat like we have known each other for a long time....it livens up a sagging spirit on some days. Thank you, my dear blog friends for that! The cynic in me sometime wonders if the same feeling will remain when we do meet up, if somehow there will be a lack of conversation...the kind of random thoughts I used to have when I was introduced to "potential" candidates for marriage by my parents. And it is probably a reflection of my personality, but I always think the other person must have a different image of me and will be let down when they do meet me in person! Well, I should stop here before I really totally ruin my image!
Signing off my 100th post with a feeling of nostalgia over the two years...a feeling of happiness and feel good after reading Kodi's 200th post which reminded me of how words can make connections and spread cheer even if a tangible hand cannot be felt over the virtual medium!