Saturday, October 18, 2014

Back to blogging after two years

I look at my last post and wonder about all the posts that were written only in mind, only to be forgotten since I didn't actually pen it down.  I wish I could open the memory book in my head just as easily as I am able to locate posts from my archives list here.  Much happens in two years and much remains the same.  Cycle of life plays out in front of my eyes as I see my aging mother and growing children.  Life slowing down for the aging parent and speeding up for the children going into higher grades.  Less to do for one and too little time for the other. 

Today is precious, I realize.  A million thoughts crowd my mind.  The column I read this morning over coffee about how rent to own furniture stores are popping up in the South because the low income groups cannot afford to have any decent furniture that they have to pay for upfront.  They get steeper into debt and sucked into further poverty.  Poverty must be horrible I think to myself.  In that same page I read this article and felt deeply sorry for what the parents were going through.  I always had the same opinion - abduction is worse than death.  I hope they get lucky, I pray to myself. 

As I cook dinner for Amma, I think of all the dishes waiting to be loaded in the dishwasher, kids to be sent upstairs in time for bed, clothes waiting to be transferred to the dryer and having to wake up early to water the plants before I take DD (used to be known as Kutti Girl KG here) to piano class.  Sigh. What a lot of never ending chores to do.  No, I should not complain, I think to myself.  People have real issues.  Every single whining thought that runs in my mind makes me feel like an ingrate considering the blessings I have today.  Things can be better always but nothing to complain about.  I joke to H (husband) often that it's downhill from here on and we better enjoy these precious years.  Kids need us, want to talk to us, we have energy to run around with them, watch the miracle of growth in front of our eyes, experience learning along with them.  Mindfulness as a parent is not to be underestimated in how much joy it can bring if one consciously practices it.  Sometimes I realize my brow is furrowed with worry over trivial issues - this class or that class, why did she say that, did DS (dear son) really understand that math problem etc and I physically force myself to just go into a smile position to relax and try to do some balasana for a few seconds.  So much to be thankful for today I remind myself. 

It feels good to write my thoughts again.  I miss writing.  I wish I could write in a way that it flows like music.  When I read some good writing, it does feel like a beautiful song to me.  Even if it does not flow like music, it just feels good to write after a long break.  I hope I am able to keep this up and write more often just so I remember some small tit bits about how life was when I was look back after many years.  I miss reading some of my old blog pals many of whom are not blogging any more. I enjoy reading the few that are still blogging who I read every now and then. I find it difficult to keep in touch with most people and I wonder who remembers me.  It feels like a train journey, passengers in and out, but you keep traveling to your destination.  For now, I like the station I am in and I am enjoying the view from the window!

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Nice to see a post from you. Do write. I love your posts

noon said...

Thanks Anon! And I wish I knew who you were...nice to know someone still is willing to read my posts! :)

Anonymous said...

OMG! OMG! OMG! Am hyperventilating so much right now that you're actually back that I cannot even read the post without getting all OTT with my happiness at seeing u back here. I'm going to go now and take a deep breath first, sleep since it's very, very late and I won't do any justice to your post, get up and first thing morning read it thru.


Thrilled to bits and here's hoping you won't disappear again...:-)

Deepa

noon said...

Dear Deepa

So good to hear from you! I feel privileged...to have one person writing such a warm and welcoming comment is worth more than a thousand comments! I hope just your warmth makes me write more. I think of you often. How are you? I have left notes for you on MM's comment page as a follow up to your comments. Not sure if you have read them.
Thanks a lot for your kindness. Hope you are well. I wish you would blog!

Noon

mnamma said...

Good to see you writing again Noon! And such a good feeling to read your posts... Welcome back and stay put - okay? :)

noon said...

Thanks so much Mniamma! Hope to see more posts about your lovely girls as well.

Anonymous said...

Noonie darling, I did read your warm and thoughtful comments on MM's blog and wasn't it funny we were actually corresponding thru followup comments on her site. We're couple of loonies for sure, good hearted ones though:-) Anyways I did write there that I owe you a huge email one on one and I do mean to do it but am currently in a treatment regimen that requires frequent traveling and as soon as I get a breather will do so. I missed your heartfelt and honest posts for the longest time and I do hope whether people read or not you continue to write for yourself.

I also missed my frequent dose of the formerly-known-as-KG-and-KB daring duo.

Glad to know your mum lives with you now, so nice for you and her too.

To give u just a quick update on my health- am still hanging in there although with multiple surgeries and other stuff over the past couple years more in spirit than in body:-) but you know how it is "I'm not gone till I'm gone" and I ain't going anywhere right now.

Deepa

noon said...

Deepa - your strength in the face of what you are going through is just amazing. Your lines are playing in mind since I read it...the warmth, the candor, the depth. I don't know how you do it. I don't know what you are going through exactly but I sincerely hope it is not too bad and I hope you get cured of it and you are here for all of us happy and healthy for years and years to come. It will happen.
I didn't know you had responded to my comments in MM's page - I thought you had not...I missed your responses then. I will wait for your long mail. Why don't you blog? Please do...

ranjani.sathish said...

Oh noon...I had missed reading this post. It is wonderful and I sincerely mean it...to have you back and writing !! Please do post regularly

Julia Roberts said...

Welcome back. Do keep posting. There are people who love your post. Anyway, thanks for the information.

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Subha said...

Wow..Glad to see you writing again.... You were the first blog I read and got inspired and I started writing about Aryan...How is KG doing